You Write Such Pretty Words...

So I've been going back and forth on it today and I've come to the conclusion that myspace has seriously become more of a chore than a chance to socialize with the people I care about. I'd rather do that in real life. So I'm going to be deleting my myspace page tonight. I'll still be on facebook and I'll be keeping my music profile too, but I'm almost never on that one. Everyone tells me I should just keep my page but honestly, its kind of something I need to do. I went through and re-read a lot of old comments and mail and stuff... I've got things there from almost 6 years ago. And the blogs, oh man the blogs. I used to blog all the damn time. SO what I did was transfer some of the blogs onto here. Anything pretty much before 2007 is probably from Myspace. So much drama on there. Practically the entirety of my relationship with tiger is on there. well, Its amazing how many people have come and gone through my life. So many I would never even have remembered if not for those small bundles of words. Thats the only thing that kind of makes me sad to do it. But really. Who fucking needs myspace. I waste too much time as it is. I don't need another excuse. There's still Facebook. and like I said my music page is still around there.

Sad about MJ. Tanie reminded me how i used to put the thriller RECORD on and dance around with a sheet as a cape. Apparently I knew the whole damn routine. I guess as a kid, like to so many, he was my idol.

Micheal Hernandez: tanie just texted me
Micheal Hernandez: he said that he just remembered you singing human nature when your were little.
gabriel_brave: ....
gabriel_brave: dude
gabriel_brave: i was really into MJ as a kid
Micheal Hernandez: sigh
Micheal Hernandez: sux
gabriel_brave: I keep getting sadder and sadder
gabriel_brave: its starting to feel like i've lost a friend that i haven't spoken to since middle school.
Micheal Hernandez: just another piece of your childhood fading away.
gabriel_brave: ....do not turn this into me turning old thing
gabriel_brave: I'll cut a bitch
Micheal Hernandez: lol
Micheal Hernandez: ok
Micheal Hernandez: i won:t
Micheal Hernandez: lol
Micheal Hernandez: rip MJ
gabriel_brave: OH GOD IM GETTING OLD
Micheal Hernandez: lol
Micheal Hernandez: yea

What a wild week so far. The partying has been absolutely intense these past few weeks actually, and this weekend was no different. Ever since my older brother decided to move back in to our house (with his girlfriend who is my age no less), I've been doing my best to be out and about as much as possible. This of course has led me to be start smoking out a lot more than usual, and I've been either dancing the night away or having random late night conversations with bondage people. Today was the first day in almost two weeks that I am staying home, much less arriving around 5 am.

One of my good friends has been pushing me to join in on her whole BDSM lifestyle parties and all. So I finally decided to go with her to one of the groups "vanilla" parties, which I guess means its just planning the next group parties and having dinner and being their normal selves. They seem like a great bunch and now that I know they are "human", as Sarah puts it, I'm actually kind of excited to check out the next event. Perverted Prom sounds like it will be good clean fun. I don't think I'll be getting into any real action there, at least not yet, but it will be interesting to see how it all goes down.

Speaking of going down, the drama continues as our dear friend Haaaiiisoos is playing his game. I'm not one to give away secrets but I'm doing my best to steer people in the right direction. It shouldn't take to long for people to start smelling the piles of bullshit homeboy sets himself up in. It goes to show that for most people, they really reap what they sow. It just is a bummer that some quality people are getting caught up in his game. Awww and he tried so hard to convince me that he still has a soul.

Gracie has left to Wyoming officially, and we sent her off in major style by partying the night away at Club Neon in little Tokyo. The scene here has really grown and the night was off the chain. From meeting a cute little Hawaiian boy to hanging out with a random "Oh so Los Angeles" crowd, making friends with a missionary and his peace pipe then enjoying some amazing tacos. The music was incredible, the random lesbian ladies always know how to party and they always gravitate to us when we go there. Had a good time with a senorita named Alex who apparently is only a faux lesbian so she can party in peace, (this did not stop her from trying her fun with me), and of course the drinks were great. I can't wait to see my friend back to make sure we party it even harder throughout the end of summer. I think the only thing that could have made it better was if a certain someone was there with me, but alas, we can't have everything can we? I think I might need to get over this, because if it continues to go nowhere and I continue to crush this hard I'm going to end up a depressed old fag living in Palmdale with my two dogs.

PS did I tell you about the old queens we made friends with? THEY FUCKING RULE! more on them later.

So I haven't been writing as much as I should be. I guess its time for another one of those update posts I do.

( hmmm. ok. so this year I have: )

my brother and niece got me watching this.

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wala wala wala walouiiigiiiiii

( So, what if you married the last person you kissed? )

just watched Dr. Horrible.

damn... I didn't see that coming but I should have because its joss whedon. Its a love/hate thing.

so I haven't been around for a while yeah?
I know. and I'm sorry. I know you miss me. its ok. I'll be back soon.

I'm, really into MGMT, Black Kids and Does It Offend You, Yeah?
can't wait to see MGMT at the bowl with Beck no less.
I need some good times in my system.

things are getting better.


lets hope it stays with this upswing.

So I'm usually not a sneaker freak but DAAAMN!
I just saw these shoes coming out in July and I have to have them.

( Behold the right kick of DOOOOM )

So my little brother signed me up for a raffle at our old church. I say our old church because I'm not really church guy. Weeeelll, I ended up winning the second prize which is $500!!!

Good stuff! and right on time for this memorial day weekend when some of my friends are heading out to Vegas!!!...


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oh wait.... YOUR FOOT IS BROKEN.


hahah at least I get to pay off some bills. T-mobile pretty much hates me.

maan zune has some of the best commercials ever and with my whole zombie kick im on these past few months, it takes the cake.



yes I can use old sayings like takes the cake.

This has been stuck in my head for over a week.
Why? Does she have a penis?

Rules:
- Pick 15 of your favorite movies.
- Go to IMDb and find a quote from each movie.
- Post them here for everyone to guess.
- Strike it out when someone guesses correctly and put who guessed it and the movie.
- NO GOOGLING/using IMDb search functions.

( 15 quotes. )

The majority of this journal is friends only. Mainly because I write a bunch of crap about my personal life and why would you want to read it unless we're friends?! But hey, I'm not picky, wanna add me? Feel free. Don't comment to be added though. This isn't a popularity contest.

So I guess its time for the annual "looking back" blog right?
well..... I dunno. There wasn't much to look back on this year.

It all started off practically the same way the past few years were going. There was a poing where I thought the same old drama was going to continue. Thankfully, It wasn't something that gave me much of a problem this year =]

I've made plenty of friends this year, as well as said goodbye to a few, a couple of which, I have to admit was pretty difficult to say goodbye to. But at this point, I've already learned my lesson on saying goodbye. It's just still difficult when you realize who is a true comrade and who is there for ulterior purposes. pbbblt. I was engaged at one point. But we realized that it was something we should wait on. Love should never be rushed. My mom underwent surgery and it put a strain on the family situation for a bit. Thank God that everything turned out well. This was pretty much the tone of the first few months of 2007.

Once the summer rolled around things turned for the better. I was able to enjoy one of the most unrestricted times of my life so far, spent plenty of time partying and living it up. Had plenty of love and met some amazing people. One person in particular has helped restore my faith in relationships. No matter how many friends and enemies a person has, its always nice to know that one person is there completely watching your back and for that I am ever so greatful.

It seems like last year was there as a buffer between 2006 and this year. It's time to get to work. All of these projects that have been touch and go are about to come to fruition. I'm not scared. If anything I'm EXTREMELY excitited about all the work that has to be done. Here's to 2008 and all the hopes that come along with it!

There's nothing wrong with you. So why do you keep beating yourself up over things that you yourself have taken control over. So why do you sit and stare at yourself, with this irrepressible urge to tear yourself open and give up? All while the hours pass by and more opportunities go unnoticed. For no reason at all.

You do this to yourself, no one even sees how much your insides have turned black and blue, bruised from your own abuse. A dark shade hovering over that you pull tight from fear of burning in the light. Even pushing away love... But what can you do? Hide away on those days that things seem to be so out of reach? Or do you go on, in hopes that there might be a chance to make something better. A chance to burn away that darkness that you hide in and take hold of those countless things that are offered to you day in and day out. One must go on. One must keep pulling themselves up and push themselves forward. Because statues don't live out their dreams. They stand in place for so long they even begin to forget themselves.

So you cannot forget yourself. You cannot forget your dreams and goals and wishes and hopes and love. You cannot begin to give in to the lies that dreams don't come true, that you have to give in and become like everyone else; frozen in place. Each morning is a fight to get up and out and move forward. And if you need that one odd day to let the building pressure relax a bit then take it, but take that time to remember what it is you want, what it is you need, and what you need to do to acheive it all.

Take that moment and seize it. make it yours to sculpt and mold. Make it yours to acheive. Then push the fear and laziness away. And make it shine.













for realz.

He always does his best to listen.
Even when its hard to speak.
He always memorizes eyes
of the people that he meets.

He loves to hear our brand new stories.
About the lives the we think we live.
It makes me wonder if he knows
any real way to forgive.

He stays up real late when he's busy.
Mornings are best left for sleep.
To him there's no such things as secrets
only memories you should keep.

He helps out when no one would notice.
Good deeds shouldn't be for pride.
He only vents out his frustrations
when he goes out for a ride.

All he'll have are hopes he's risen
and memories he'll keep inside.
He's never been good at goodbyes.
So he'll just go out for a drive.
.

the million miles it takes to make a phone call
the thousand breaths it takes to speak a word
fear has no power more than power you might lend.
and fear not that i might not here your cry

long nights stretched across days
might be memories if not shared the same.
midnight has always been a friend
even if with others of a different name.

out of doorways and restless days
We once chased our boredom
followed right along with passions
of what we one day might become


I know you're hurting
and even though we've grown apart
even if it seems we've never met
no matter how much you might think I've turned my back
no matter the eternity of time between us

I've been here
and I'll always be.

I know you're hiding
and even though you might hide from me
If all you need is a shoulder
or an arm to hold you steady
or just a glance to share the silence.

I'll be here
as I've always been.


People say blood runs thicker than water
we once proved them wrong.
but people run around sharing titles
and none of that mattered with what we had going on.

no one can deny how much we fought for change
our past would not define us
and all of those we blamed
would never touch us again.


I know you're hurting
and even though we've grown apart
even if it seems we've never met
no matter how much you might think I've turned my back
no matter the eternity of time between us

I've been here
and I'll always be.

I know you're hiding
and even though you might hide from me
If all you need is a shoulder
or an arm to hold you steady
or just a glance to share the silence.

I'll be here
as I've always been.


Theres always a light
and the darker it is
the brighter it shines.


I know you're hurting
and even though we've grown apart
even if it seems we've never met
no matter how much you might think I've turned my back
no matter the eternity of time between us

I've been here
and I'll always be.

I know you're hiding
and even though you might hide from me
If all you need is a shoulder
or an arm to hold you steady
or just a glance to share the silence.

I'll be here
as I've always been.

everyone i asked about it said the same thing.
that the day would never come.
and my comfort level rose
thinking I was safe.
so I guess I owe you thanks.
because you kept saying that day is near.

I'm guessing it was only a matter of time before it happened.
but what does it mean to me?
I guess only this:

that angels can fall out of heaven and, after biding their time, can sneak back in.


"but what good is forgiveness without penance?"
he probably doesn't even know the meaning of the word.


but please, lets stop this game. I didn't end the last one, to start one anew.
I know where your devotion lies.
and as much as you like to pretend.
you know where it is as well.

congratulations on your return.
to days left behind a year ago.
you can find your way back through their door.
just not through these gates.
keys given away so easily
tend to be misplaced and forgotten.